Under the Weather with Wallace and James

This past week, on Wednesday afternoon, I heard Wally cough and wrestle with fluid in his lungs.  A veteran to respiratory ailments, I thought this was the start of pneumonia so I rushed him to the doctor.  

By the time I got there, Wallace has a temperature over 101 degrees and was having a more difficult time breathing.  He did have some fluid in his lungs and I was informed that if he had been any younger, would have been admitted to the hospital.  As I watched him cry, puffy eyes, snotty nose and congested chest, my heart sunk.  Then came all of the irrational thoughts.  

What if we didn't go here...

If we just kept him away from so and so...

What if I would have done this...or that...or this and that...

What if my breast milk had more nutrients...

How can I improve my milk so that it creates a protective forcefield for Wallace...

It got crazy.  I got crazy.  Mama bear was in full effect.

I went down this emotional rabbit hole and got irrational.  At the end of my trip...Wallace was still sick and my freakout was not improving the situation.  If anything, Wallace could feel my nervous energy and I was adding to his stressful state.  After a few deep breaths and some refocusing, I decided that I needed to be present to help Wallace recover.  We have spent the last few days reading, cuddling, sleeping in and laughing.  I believe happiness is the best medicine so instead of being frustrated, we are trying to be happy and accepting.  

Now, six days in, Wallace is feeling much better and I am am choosing to believe that everyone is doing their best to keep Wallace healthy.  Wallace got sick after Bryan and I got sick from hanging out with people that were sick.  Simple.  I have learned that we do need to be careful and make sure that hands are being washed before handling Wallace and ultimately, Bryan and I need to be healthy so that we aren't affected by kid cooties.  We have been on a real health kick this week.  Drinking juices, eating more raw, making smoothies and sleeping more are some of the ways that we are improving.  With clear eyes and rested bodies, we are making our way to being uber healthy.